rest of the day

I went to target bought twilight and am anxious to watch it. Dr. Woodward decided Maddy would benefit from a mediport. No more pokes for an IV. It just needs to be flushed every 3-4 weeks and you use numbing cream before you access the port. So they will be putting that in tomorrow afternoon. Dr. Woodward also said she will figure this out piece by piece,even if it takes awhile. Im glad she is on top of it even though I have doubts at times. 

On another note Joe is in denial that Maddy has anything wrong with her and expects me to get a full time job. He doesn't consider taking care of the kids and apartment a full time job let alone taking care of a special needs kid. He only contributes as little financially, emotionally.He works only a few hours on Sundays and goes to school M-F,but he has many hours left in the day after school when he could work. He says all the money he makes is his. So that makes me virtually broke. His dad refuses to help me and the girls,and he can so afford to. His step mom told me if and when I decide to get my own place they will help me and the girls,but I doubt they mean that. I don't know what more I can do to make it. He doesn't want better for me and the girls. I have been trying so hard to find a job but its even harder when me and Maddy are in and out of the hospital all the time. He visits maybe an hour a day,but not everyday. When he does visit he complains about taking Maddy for walks to see her friends. He is the only person who thinks I should be working full time even with Maddy in the hospital. Well his dad thinks the same way. He says my mom can stay with her or have nurses keep an eye on her. Also he says he will come out here while I work,more like he will fall asleep for hours instead. I am soo tired of all this with him. I am basically a single mom,I figure I may as well be one. I  want out,but since I dont have a job it makes things even more difficult and if I did then what. Our lease is up in August,when we do get out of here I'm gonna  tell him stuff has to change(and stay changed) he has to wake up and support me and the girls, realize that I can't work and work hard to provide a better life for me and the girls or it's over. 

Well,Im off to watch Twilight.